There are pros to being young.

Bubba text me yesterday to say he had a date.  I'm really excited for him.  I'm glad he's moving on, even if he still does love that asshole.  He actually surprised me last weekend by coming to town.  We did a lot of angry break up car karaoke.  It was nice.  I really hope things go smoothly for him for awhile.  He takes things too seriously sometimes.  Hopefully he'll date around or at least not get serious about anyone anytime soon.

On the home front, I almost moved out last week.  I found a woman's shirt in my laundry that wasn't mine.  Before I said anything to the boy, I asked all my female friends who had been over since I'd done laundry last if they had left a shirt in my room.  All denied it being theirs.  So I confronted the boy.  He'd been acting moody since I came home from Mom's (weekend of the Fourth) and getting mad at me about stupid little things: me asking for a soda, Tank following the roommate out the open front door, etc.  It all was my fault for some reason.

We ended up having this big thing about it.  The next day, a coworker came over and said it was her's when she saw it.  I was not happy.  I'm no longer a jealous person, but that shirt caused me too much heartache and time than it was worth.  Sometimes I wonder if things like this have started happening as a way of something telling me we aren't meant to be together.  I don't want to think about a life without the boy, he's the love of my life.  Hopefully this is just a rough patch for us and things get better.  If not, life will go on even if I don't want it to....

Bubba caught his boyfriend with another guy yesterday... I'm not sure how to help him get through this.  I've never caught any SO with anyone else, so this is one experience I'm at a loss with.  He decided to tell his BF's parents about them so that they knew he wasn't just being rude when he left abruptly the other day.

I just found out, like seriously just now, that his BF ended things and said he was getting a new roommate for this fall when they start school.  I know BF is upset but he couldn't hide everything forever.  He was going to have to tell his parents and he's going to have to grow up and stop screwing around when he's with someone.

My brother is heartbroken.  He doesn't know how to handle this.  I don't know how to help.  I'm scared for him.  He keeps saying he just wants to be normal.  What is normal?  Being attracted to the opposite sex?  I don't find that normal.  I'm not just attracted to men.  But I don't consider myself all that normal either.  He thinks people wouldn't judge him if he were "normal".  How wrong he is.  People judge to judge.  I don't know how to get that through to him.  I don't know how to help him.

I don't want him to do something stupid because his first real relationship didn't work out.  They hardly ever do.  How do I help him?  I need a lot of help with this...